I have this philosophical side, you know. I try to turn it off, or at least tune it out some days, but it’s not really in my nature. I wonder about … well… just about everything… almost all the time.
I haven’t had a philosophical posting in a while, so indulge me for a moment, OK?
One of the questions I get to ponder while I’m in “Earth School” (as my friend Davey J. would say) is “Being vs. Doing”.
Along with an almost insatiable wonderment about most topics, truth be told, I also have a quiet obsession with goals. I have dozens of them in my head at any given moment... specific ones about what needs to get done this year, this term, this month, this week… in the next ten minutes and vague ones like my 2006 theme of “strong body, light spirit”. I write some of them down, but mostly, I keep them silently catalogued in my head (or in this blog!)
I suppose you could say that I have done a respectable amount of stuff in my life so far… Mostly because I think I set my mind to do something and then do it. I set mini-goals each step of the way until I’ve done whatever it is I had in mind. (And of course, I think about each little mini-goal and the process that goes into achieving it, too… I wouldn’t be a philosopher unless I did…)
I have school goals, fitness goals, financial goals, travel goals, personal goals… and on and on the list goes. I can’t help it… I don’t really know how NOT to have goals.
I have learned that it isn’t wise to hyper-focus on them… but I haven’t learned how to completely turn them off either.
Haven’t learned how to just… be.
It’s the ultimate irony… To have a goal where the goal itself is to just be… Not do anything… just be.
The other irony is that I rather enjoy meditation… and can settle into the quiet tranquility required for it, without a lot of angst or frustration. That definitely requires less “doing” and more “being”.
With the start of the new school semester, I can foresee there will be many things to do. I ponder how it can be balanced with “being”.